Mum’s birthday
It was my mum’s birthday yesterday and i have to say it was pretty uneventful :/ i mean it was just like any other birthday – lots of presents and cards, and everyone was in a fairly good mood…but there was nothing to make it memorable. Ah well.
It was the funeral yesterday as well but i dont really wanna talk about that.
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i moved out of halls completely over the weekend and in a way i will kinda miss the place…so much has happened there over the past year, most of them good things that i’ve really enjoyed and learnt from but i suppose there are some things i’d like to forget about the place…
Went out with Sam while i was back in derby as well, which was lovely 
Went to the courtyard, Varsity and Blue note and there was hardly any students to be seen anywhere… It was a brilliant night though, however the hangover in the bloody morning wasn’t.
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i’ve got my 3rd physio session today and i’m really not as up for it as usual…i’m just feeling so ill at the moment – my whole body is aching, my throat hurts, i’ve got earache and a headache and my nose feels like its been punched – urghhhhh, i really just wanna go back to bed, but i’ve got to go out for my mum’s birthday meal tonight :/ should be fun with the amouont of arguments i’ve been having with someone at the moment. ah well.
i need to get dressed.
now.
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a month since my last blog
bloody hell…i’m amazed at how much has happened in that space of time – June’s been a hectic but amazing month, and a great start to the summer.
so i ended up going to see Rage against the Machine at Finsbury park and it was fucking awesome Drove down with Jordy, Steve and Charlie….it was a nice, hot, sunny day and the atmosphere was great. I didn’t think much of the support acts but rage were fantastic – they really got me in the mood for Download festival a few days later I suppose the only way the day could have been any better would be if i’d not been on crutches for it :/ ah well…it did have some benefits haha
A couple of days later it was off to Donnington for Download – it was great, i had so many good times and can’t wait to back there again next year…the only down point was Sunday afternoon with the torrential rain that meant we missed stone sour :/ The highlights were definitely Rage (again), deftones and tiger please – loved ‘em.
so yeah, i’ve just realised that i haven’t really updated on stuff to do with my operation and such….so here goes – i went to finsbury park on crutches but was luckily off them in time for download although i was still limping everywhere - to be honest though i was lucky to have recovered so quickly. I returned back to work a week later which was great cause i was beginning to get seriously bored sitting at home all the time, and it was great to see certain people again Started physio last week so i can improve the bend in my leg and hopefully get it straight again….and its working so far – my limp is now pretty much gone and my knee is near enough straight and i love the sessions. next step is to start work on my balance and muscle strength…should be fun. oh and finally my scars are healing up well…a couple have even started to fade out.
so what else has happened in june…. ermm – oh results. Yep, got my results back for my 1st year and i’m quite proud of myself – i got 2:1 in most of my modules and a 1st in 2 others 
so happy about that and can’t wait to get started on my second year, its going to be so much fun and we finally get to apply some of this theory to real life situations.
Last weekend was the Pink concert at work, and i have to say i actually enjoyed working it…it was stressful, busy and i got a fair amount of abuse from guests but i loved doing it – it was different was the usual days at work and everyone just seemed to get on better and worked together really well. I can’t wait to work at more concerts and hopefully with having this experience i might apply to work at bigger events.
During the past week i’ve had some bad news that hasn’t been helped by other people…my auntie died on friday morning suddenly. We’d known for nearly a week that she was critically ill and unlikely to pull through, but it was just the way that she seemed so healthy previously to it. 
The funeral is on Monday and i’m in two minds whether to go – on one hand i should go to say goodbye but then i think about how upset i get and i don’t want to put myself through all that again. RIP Auntie Pauline.
So yeah, i’ve been pretty upset and down for the past few days and it certainly wasn’t helped by being ignored for the past week or yesterday with a pretty shitty text. I’m not going to go into it cause i’m still pretty upset about it all but i was so happy and excited for moving into the house in september – everything was gonna be great, yes we still all had problems but i assumed we could sort them out after we’d had some time apart over the summer. But now, so much has been messed up by one little fucking text. At the moment i just can’t be bothered anymore, i’d rather just go back and live in halls on my own but i know that is slightly influenced by the other things going on in my life this week. I’m just so upset by it all – there’s so much i want to say but it would be wrong to do it on here, but there’s obviously no chance of doing it face to face because it was obvious that she left it till now to tell me so that i couldn’t try to sort it out.
i can’t wait to see jordy again later just so i have someone i can talk to about it all, just someone i can explain why i am so upset about it all to.
grrrrrrr…it’s upsetting me now, just writing about it. RIGHT, happier things…plan ahead, forget about all this shit and fuckers.
plan for the summer:
5th July – Mum’s birthday + the funeral
19th July – Birthday night out in Hanley
20th July – My 20th and meal
30th July – Holiday in France
well i think that will do now – blog is now updated i am gonna attempt to keep it upto date from now on. x
pushed for time
I had the clips/stitches/staples taken out my leg this morning and it didn’t hurt as much as i thought it would…there were a couple that snagged and ripped the skin but it was no more painful than anything else i’ve had done
next step on the recovery plan is to start walking further on it and attempting to bend it – i can see this being difficult judging from how tight my knee feels at the moment :/
7 days till download …disappointed that sum 41 are no longer playing but so glad killswitch engage are replacing wolfmother (Y)
i really cant wait…i’m determined to be all healed and back to normal for it, and yeah i would love to be ready in time for RAGE this weekend but i’m still unsure…i guess i’m not going to know for definite till friday :/
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times flying
so alot has happened since i last blogged – actually not alot has happened but life has just felt hectic lately
the last week in Derby was amazing…i had so much fun saying bye to everyone, going out pretty much every night, meeting some great new people, drinking way too much, silly dancing, having blue note to ourselves on a Thursday, being stalked by freaks and dribblers- and then being rescued, and generally just celebrating the end of 1st year
the best night was most definitely the last…organised by sam for my last night out before the operation it was just a generally awesome, drunken night at Mosh…thanks alot for that to Sam, Angie, Shiv, Lizzie, Emma, Nicky, Dean, Jack, Andy and everyone else that made an appearance - you guys are great
sooooooooo the op… it was better than i expected, ended up having 2 operations and i was awake for both which i have to say was weird….i had the lower half of my body paralysed through my spine but i was conscious throughout. The only bad thing i have to say about it all is the pain afterwards – fucking hell! once i’d regained the feeling in my legs it was agony
its been 6 days since the op and the things are getting better…i’m recovering and my leg is starting to heal. i’m going to have the clips removed on tuesday which i’m not looking forward to, but hopefully after that i can start walking properly again
i only have 12 days till download so i’m really hoping my recovery speeds up…i’m obviously not completely deluded and know that by then i’m not going to be back to my old self, but i need to at least be able to put up with standing all day
unfortunately i dont have as high hopes for making the rage gig :/ i would love to go but i cant risk hurting myself there and not being able to make download…and its not like i’d be losing out on any money if i miss the rage gig either – and they are playing download so i will still get to see them
i just need to have a positive attitude for the next few weeks x
just a quick one..
night out with the girlies from the course tonight (last one before we all go home) – hopefully will cheer me up a bit if not i will have to get drunk and stay up all night talking shit with sam again 
going back home on friday…i don’t know how long for – all depends on what shifts i’ve been put in for at work but i’m hoping to come back to derby again next week for a bit. i suppose the next month or so is mainly going to be divided between time at home and back here in derby :/
i’m still confused btw…struggling to know whats going on with so many things. i just want them sorted so i can start planning ahead again. and right now it just feels like certain people dont care either way…
time to get ready
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